rant - just can't.

this blog first started out as a "hate you" letter to everyone who's brought me down lately. To everyone who's "given up", stole my ideas, to friends who weren't friends. I was angry, spiteful and I felt completely justified by the words I wrote. Despite the annoyance, anger, and unbelievable irritation I've felt for these certain people - I won't write my "hate you" letter. Initially, it makes me look just as bad as them - if not moreso. So instead, I'll swallow my irritation and push away the anger and leave myself with a justified feeling; pity.
I pity those of you who can't move on with their lives. To those of you who "use" others ideas and parade them around as your own. I pity the selfish people who claim themselves to be friends; when in all reality, this is not the case. My pity even extends to those who have hurt me - both mentally as well as psychically - for using someone else to use, hurt, and control. When all anger is pushed aside; all you're left with is my pity and your own guilt.
I felt the urge to stop writing here - to give up on writing my own story - so I could keep those that I pity "away" from me. I thought that if I were to stop writing, I could stop them from "seeing in" on my life. I won't.
I will not stop writing. Even if it's to tell absolutely no one that I had a good day.. or an incredibly bad one. I am free to write, think and feel whatever it is I wish to. And I will not let the pitied stop me.
Because I'm going to be somebody.